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A very frustrating day, all in all. I wanted to get atleast five pages of my comps written, and to that effect, I said I'd only be available to have lunch with her to say goodbye. My mother believed I could use an infusion of "glamour" in my life, so she decided to take me out to this chi-chi restaurant where I felt extremely uncomfortable. I was wearing my Carleton sweatshirt and had newsprint on my fingers from packing up my stereo and here were these impeccably dressed and makeup-ed waitresses hovering over us. And I wasn't able to focus on anything but comps and wanting to get out of there. Mom had this look in her eyes and manner that said how much she'd like a daughter who didn't always have her nose buried in a book, a daughter who dressed fashionably and worked out and cared more about attracting male attention and was able to "have fun", the sort of fun my mother enjoys, a daughter who would flirt and gossip. The thing is, I don't get any satisfaction out of the things my mother enjoys.

In any case, I've resolved not to come home over spring break.

I did go out to Thai food with Dad and Linda. It was a high point of the day, particularly seeing as I'm unlikely to come across much Thai food in the coming months.

With all the packing, I was only able to make a few notes for comps. It's due 10:10 AM on Tuesday; I anticipate working up until then. I won't have 20 pages, but I would like to have more than 12. It's too bad. I would have liked to play some Settlers and spend some down time with people this weekend.